A New Phase
Life has been stagnant for long.
A new consciousness is starting to dawn on me. The biggest worry/concern that I have right now is that I will leave all that I have right now and move on. It would be harsh on the others.
Come to think of it, I don't think so. I really don't think others care that much about me. That might seem like I am just venting. But deep down, I know. You have to swallow your pride sometimes and just accept things the way it is. You can't live in bubble dreams all the time. They will pop some time or the other.
Life's fairly comfortable of late. Nothing really bothers me. Except for minor things. I have what I need in my life. Space, books, decent food, music, a decent set of people (to while away time with - not to really get close to). I have no reason to not listen to me deep inside and push on.
If others care enough, they'll either wait on the other side keeping everything still in place or they'll come along for the ride. I expect no-one to do either.
Hardly been sleeping for 3 days now. And I have been working like a horse - 12-14 hour days throughout running around all over the place. I don't know how I'm getting all this energy and still stay up and ruminate.
Like I said, a new consciousness is dawning. I hope this one leads to slightly better outcomes.
A new consciousness is starting to dawn on me. The biggest worry/concern that I have right now is that I will leave all that I have right now and move on. It would be harsh on the others.
Come to think of it, I don't think so. I really don't think others care that much about me. That might seem like I am just venting. But deep down, I know. You have to swallow your pride sometimes and just accept things the way it is. You can't live in bubble dreams all the time. They will pop some time or the other.
Life's fairly comfortable of late. Nothing really bothers me. Except for minor things. I have what I need in my life. Space, books, decent food, music, a decent set of people (to while away time with - not to really get close to). I have no reason to not listen to me deep inside and push on.
If others care enough, they'll either wait on the other side keeping everything still in place or they'll come along for the ride. I expect no-one to do either.
Hardly been sleeping for 3 days now. And I have been working like a horse - 12-14 hour days throughout running around all over the place. I don't know how I'm getting all this energy and still stay up and ruminate.
Like I said, a new consciousness is dawning. I hope this one leads to slightly better outcomes.
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