Judging

“The only man I know who behaves sensibly is my tailor; he takes my measurements anew each time he sees me. The rest go on with their old measurements and expect me to fit them.”- George Bernard Shaw

People make judgments for a reason. It helps the brain do less work. That's the neurological reason for it. It's the reason why we create stereotypes in a society. It all boils down how our stupid little brains can't take too much of processing however brainy it is. 

However, for the person on the receiving end of this judgement, this explanation sometimes offers little consolation. 

Frankly, it hurts.

It is extremely hard for people to make any sort of real judgement because of the fundamental nature of human beings - we are irrational beings. That's why we love. It's irrational. Why would be do such stupid things which do not make sense when we are in love. You might think that it has mating purposes to it. But people still do fall in love and remain that way even after having babies, or even if they can't. You can fall in love without wanting to mate too.

Anyway, I lost track.

Judgement. Yes, judgement. It's really hard to make an accurate one. Even if you momentarily make a good one, it would be wrong to hang on to it because, people change, circumstances change, the world changes. So, it's fundamentally wrong to not have an open heart and an open mind to things. You are missing the point of life. 

And more importantly, you start to make decisions which are based on these wrong assumptions. And sometimes, when you do that, you can hurt others.

But some people are just a little too stuck up and blinkered in their vision that it doesn't even matter how much you try to convince them about this point. But that doesn't mean that I stop trying. Not if that person matters a lot.

Life is too short, you know.

Too short for this petty negativity.

Here it comes back.

Almost half a year since I've written anything down year.

Life has been different. Things have not moved around so quickly ever. I re-read all my previous posts a few days back and it was such a pleasure re-connecting back. The days were dark though. But now I realize that the darkness never really goes away. I shouldn't expect it to either.

Although this year hasn't been as dark as a few years back, it's been one of the worst. I do not know what it is doing to me. I just hope that all the little pieces of me come back together alright.

One positive is that this mask is working quite well. There is a freedom that it brings and it saves me sometimes. But things are not that bad. At least I breathe better now.